"albino redwood tree"
date taken: october 31, 2008
photo by: me
day 22 - a song you listen to when you're sad
when i was young and masochistic, i would play the sappiest songs ever when i was sad. because all i knew of sadness was the temporary self-loathing that came with unrequited love. getting older, i witnessed and experienced suffering that is so enormous, it swallowed generations whole. possibilities, moments, altered without warning or logic. my pain was dwarfed, and i started to look at it with fresh eyes.
i've been known to sit on the pity pot from time to time, but i have come to accept that i am a grown ass woman and we grown ass women have other ways to approach our problems. this is not the worst pain in the history of the universe. this is not extraordinary. there is no grand conspiracy against me. it's just life.
so these days, when i'm upset, i don't necessarily want to play fake plastic trees on repeat, excellent as it is. i prefer to play this song, acknowledge the pain i feel, and move on with more grace than i knew i had.
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